I never wanted something else as this

I know I belong there

Even if some don't believe this

I'd like to get up at 5 o'clock

Because I felt like a part of the whole thing

I don't know why I don't fit in there

You said I'm too young and too quiet

But they are weak reasons

Why shouldn't I do that what makes me fun?

Only because I am like I am?

But you can't know me after just five weeks

With every day which brought me closer to the end

I loved it much more

And that's why it is so hard to let it go

The last years weren't good

But now I found something what made me fun

And it's hard to become an operation nurse

Maybe you want to protect me from something

But I don't know from what

And that's why I'll come back and do that you thought of I could never do it

Why shouldn't I do that what makes me fun?

Only because I am like I am?

But you can't know me after just five weeks

With every day which brought me closer to the end

I loved it much more

And that's why it is so hard to let it go

I miss it to watch all the operations

And to see things which many never seen in their lives

I touched a bare bone

I saw a caesarean section

I saw a 17 year old girl

After she had thrown herself under a train

And I saw 16 open hearts

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27.03.20